When I was 6 years old I was sent away to study. Whoever knows me, they heard at least once this phrase being a part of my life. I always used to think that this affected me in time. And it did. Of course, as kids we do not know or understand the decisions our … More abandonment
I haven’t really smiled in a while. The fact is, that I know why. I stopped myself from smiling. You wanna know why? Cuz of stupid decisions. That I take. That we all take, at one point. Have you ever given something you had, for something that may become yours? Have you ever found yourself … More Have I told you lately that I miss you?
Where do you stand? Do you know where you’re going? Do you have any clue? If your answer is “no” or “I’m confused”, try looking deeper inside yourself. Nobody knows better than you, what’s in there. Just be honest to yourself. No matter how afraid you are. The answers are all in there. Open the … More Where do we go from here?
Home… for more than 3 months now. Why don’t I write then? If I have all the time in the world? I should be ashamed of myself. I should, but I’m not. When I was away I dreamed about so many things happening here, when I get home… and they truly happened. And now, now … More Trying to find yourself
Alexandra, I need to talk to you… and I want you to listen… What’s happening in your head? “I don’t know. Everything is blurry. Everything is dark, now.” But why? What  happened? What have you done? “I don’t know. I cannot find myself anymore. I don’t know where I am. I am less aware of … More Alexandra,
You know… I just want one thing…and I reminisce… last year… nothing synchronized… yea I got it, I had to go and see the world. I ask to go to Rio de Janeiro, in 4 months I was living my dream. But this, this what I’m askin now is so doable, that it scares me … More I cannot wait 🙂
i’ve got this feeling inside… of hollowness… i don’t know why, but it seems like i cannot fill it up anymore… with anythin… another day, i wake up in the mornin, but with no purpose, just like a machine… what’s really hard for me to actually sense is that even music, even music can’t help … More hollow
How this people can be? Well, maybe it’s not correct, maybe I shouldn’t say they are actually people. Because they behave demonic, not human. I had the unfortunate luck to meet some people like this during these past years. And I wanna take time to write about them, because yesterday I’ve been thru a messed … More my mind was twisted by some demons during my lifetime
I have some time now, when I can’t sleep, my eyes are open, my mind doesn’t want to go to sleep, everybody is outside partyin, me stayin in, under the blankets cuz it’s cold like crazy, I just don’t wanna be a part of any crap… usual freakin crap… I wanna be with myself… I’m … More words… nothin else
now what? now what?? i keep on askin this question and i don’t hear any answer. i wonder why? did i ever hear answers? or i just thought i did and i went further. nowhere to stay nowhere to go. why am i here? why was i ever here, or there? for what? 1000 questions … More ?
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